Finding Myself Again

Finding Myself Again

Hello, and welcome back to Waking Up with Faith; today's blog will discuss how to find yourself again.  Have you ever felt lost in life, grieved in a relationship, or had a midlife crisis? I want you to know you can get your groove back. I’ve watched a movie called “How Stella got her groove back” and in the film, Stella, the main character, finds her confidence and self-love. Well, I can say you can find your groove. Unlike Stella, you won’t have to travel to another country to rediscover yourself. You can find it right now. Let’s continue reading and discover how you can receive passion, joy, and a new sense of self.

Lost Now I’m Found

Have you ever lost someone close to you? Do you remember how that feels? The survivor guilt, the tears and anguish over the time you didn’t get to spend, the words you didn’t get to say. And then the sweet memories over the times you had. Have you ever grieved yourself?

I used to feel so drained and worrisome about my purpose, who I would marry, and if I should pursue another degree.  I lost myself in that constant stress of trying to figure out life on my own. I had completely forgotten who I was and why God created me. I was so wrapped up in what was next that I missed crucial life moments until I prayed and asked God to show me how he sees me. I wouldn’t get the answer I sought until I was ready to sit with myself and ask the hard questions. Like: Why am I feeling this way? What am I running away from? And Do I want to continue living this way?

I finally had enough of the anxiety and the swings of depression, that I relinquished everything to him. When I surrendered, God gave me peace.  It was in the encounter with Jesus that I began to find myself. He showed me who I am and how he views me. I searched for scriptures that talk about confidence, beauty, and value. I repeated scriptures like, “I am more than a conqueror” Romans 8:37, and “not to give your pearls away to pigs.” Matthew 7:6 lets me know that I’m valuable.  But in the process of losing myself to find myself again. It required me to open my eyes to see who is for me and who is not. This means I had moments where I mourned so-called friendships or the illusion of what I thought it was.

Mourning The Illusion

Now that my eyes were open to the truth, I had to strip myself of what I thought I needed to be. I was already at a wall, so numb and lost. How could it get any worse? What I mean by mourning is when you must let go of a friendship or relationship to find yourself. That isn’t an easy thing to do. In fact, it’s painful; who wants to let go of something you love? But it's necessary when it’s hurting you and your growth. I spent alone time with God so he could renew and purify me.  Now that I have seen the truth, I realize that many relationships in my life were one-sided; I was always constantly pouring out but didn’t have people around to pour into me from a godly, loving place.  So, I woke up from the sleep that I was in for so long. The parts that felt good, the parts that you missed. But know that you deserve better. As I let God work on my heart and transform me from inside and out, I had moments where I mourned the false love that I was so used to receiving.

Mourning a friendship, a relationship, a job, or who you used to be. It’s a part of healing. I want you to know it’s okay to cry and even scream, but don’t go back to what hurt you.  Don’t believe the lies that “maybe you got it wrong, maybe they changed.” “That you’re no good, there’s no hope for me, I’m too old or young.” You deserve true love, a love so honest and pure. That love only comes from God.  

Needing a Relationship to Feel Complete

Growing up, I used to believe I needed a relationship to feel fulfilled. And although God created man and women to be together, however, it’s our relationship with Christ that gives us our fulfillment. You can go after degrees, money, status, and other temporary pleasures, but at the end of the day, you will still feel empty inside. And why is that? We long for companionship; we desire something more than a short and good time.  We want to feel safe and free. A relationship with God is the most freeing relationship you can ever experience. He restores and heals what we thought was fulfilling and gives us hope.

God is the Center of Every Relationship

That is why it is essential to keep a relationship with God. Our relationship with God is the foundation for all other relationships, including ourselves. If we don’t know who created us and why he loves us, how can we love anything or anyone? John 3:16. Only in God can we gain authentic confidence, joy, peace, love, and creativity for life. I am a witness to that; I am still learning more about who I am in Christ; since knowing him, I have joy, I have peace, and I feel beautiful in a way that I never felt in any relationship here on earth.  

God’s Love is How You Will Find Yourself

Stella mourned her relationship with her ex-husband because she loved him but recognized that she deserved better. She was a 40-year-old divorcee and felt like she was in a rut in life. She lost all her sense of confidence and joy. It’s only because of this spontaneous trip, where she meets an interesting lover that she rediscovers herself. She finds joy in life; she discovers that she is beautiful just the way God made her. Just because she had a few hiccups on the road, she allowed the pain, the struggle, to tear her identity. But love, a love that is so pure and honest, directed her back to herself. I want to encourage someone today to trust God to show you who you truly are. You may have forgotten; you may be on this healing to discovery for a long time; you may have been lost for a long time; you feel it is easier to stay down than climb up. But know that, like Stella, if you just take the opportunity to invite love into your life. You can find a new life that you never even thought possible.

I pray this morning’s message inspires and encourages you to allow God to transform you from the inside out. To face the obstacles in your life that are blocking your growth. To heal your heart so you have joy, peace, and a sound mind. That you will have confidence again.  Invite Christ into your life and ask him to show you how to love yourself so you can invite love into your life. In Jesus' name, Amen.

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Love,

Mahalia 💛💛